9 days into the detox and this has to be the worst day so far. I am having a bit of a CRISIS day. I have been racing round continuously from lecture to appointment with no spare time. I just fully embraced it and mostly ignored the outside world. I needed that. But I now have a nasty ear infection and yesterday I was told I must slow down. At least, at last, I have time to get on the internet and write this. The left side of my face is swollen and the ear is closed up so I am on strong anti-biotics: ironic in a natural healing place and I f***king hate anti-biotics. Moreover, I was given some further disturbing news from the doctor from my blood results. I am borderline diabetic and I have some problems with my arteries (my CRP is 3 when it should under 1), and my blood is thicker than it should be. All solvable at a cost!
My normal blood test was generally good except for a few liver enzymes; in line with cancer being there and my cholesterol was slightly high. I commissioned a further test to delve further into the cells to show hormone levels, inflammation markers etc. Dr Ghen is one of the world’s leading IV nutritionist therapist and has had amazing success with curing cancer, especially breast and prostate cancers and specialises in balancing hormones – which is a real concern to me as my cancer is oestrogen fed. He has recommended a load of supplements and a course of high dose naturally derived Vitamin C IV infusion mixed with silver and some other nutrients needed (determined from the blood results). It kills cancer cells, pretty much like chemo does, but without the side effects. There is also Dr Lemberg who specialises in oxygen treatments to help oxygenate the body to keep it alkaline which stabilises the cancer. I will do as many treatments as finances allow but they are expensive. They said the detox stands alone but these treatments enhance the outcome: they give it a better chance of working and can cut down the time of the detox in half. I know they have me by the short and curly’s on this one but they do have an incredible success rate. There are many people here who healed their cancer years ago or knows someone who did. I feel stressed that I will not be able to do the full range treatments on offer but will do what I can. I cringe to have to ask but I still need your help and support.
I swapped a heatwave in London for stormy Florida; sounds so wrong. But my instinct and hobbling around on a stick with an aching hip told me I needed to start my healing path quickly so I booked and left as soon as I had funds. I am so grateful to be here at Hippocrates Health Inst. but this is not a holiday. It is challenging to say the least. The philosophy is to detox the body while flooding it with living enzymes to optimism the immune system to its full potential. It is an anti-inflammatory diet with little other than raw plants, sprouts, raw vegetables, nuts, seeds, spices, fresh juices and the dreaded enemas. This is not for the faint hearted.
All this clean living leaves not only heals the body, but opens up the mind to deeply hidden emotions which are now coming to the surface. A psychologist told me years ago that I have an oral fixation, whether it be booze, fags or whatever! I have stopped all these substances so it is time to deal with my demons. Luckily there are professionals here who can help with that but again, at a cost. Incredibly vivid dreams are visiting me with powerful messages. I haven’t remembered my dreams for years so this is like a ‘trip’ with a difference. Unfortunately they are extremely disturbing, the last few years have left terrible scars on my subconscious. I now know why I still wake up depressed most days. But there is a full size labyrinth that I walk round most days too with a different intention that the dreams have highlighted and it stirs up all kinds of thoughts and realisations which helps clarity. My mind I fear will be the hardest one to heal.
There is an incredible healing energy here. I would say about a third of the clients are here with every range of chronic illnesses, more than another third are doing it to simply to be be healthy and look youthful, and the rest are here on a 9 week health educator course so they can teach it and make a difference in the world. There is every age range and most are very passionate about it and embrace it as a way of life and return many times. I have met so many strong empowered people who have been so supportive.
While here, I have scaled the dizzy heights of absolute elation with life but also plummeted to the depths of despair to intense feelings of hopelessness. At these times I crave a glass of wine and a smoke, but thankfully, it passes eventually. I have too much to loose. I vacillate between loving the food and absolutely despising it. It is part of the process they tell me and say it will get better as I feel better. My tastebuds are changing and it will be easier as I get cleaner. I will get through this even though it is incredibly tough. No-one said it would be easy but there are a few short cuts out there.
Love and healing